For years hubby and I have been dreaming about working together (be it normal employment, an entrepreneurial venture, whatever). So after deciding to move back to our home country, we thought: this is it! We had decided that we would take some months off, renovate the house together (paint etc.), and work on our future plans. We're both quite introverted people, and don't need a highly social life, so this is fine. We love being together, and have never had issues spending all our time together. But it hasn't worked out this way.
This move has really been quite stressful. Everything that could go wrong, did. And being back here isn't moonshine and roses (more on that another time). Though we can afford to take a little time off before starting work again (and planned it that way), the hubby couldn't quite stick to that plan. From day 1 he was paranoid about that, and have now started work. So....no house renovations....no special time together. In fact, in the 3 months since we've been back home, we've done nothing but bite at each other. This is really sad for me, and I hate not liking my husband at the moment. But I don't.
I've spilled so many tears lately...don't know what the hell is wrong with me. And then I came to a conclusion: I have to go to work again... I wanted to stay home for the kids' sake (the whole adjustment thing, etc), but I think they'll survive. I have to start thinking about Me for a change...
Its time to get out of my little box.
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